Goals

I've found myself often thinking lately about how boring I am. And while, for the most part, I don't care and am quite comfortable with the way things are, I also don't feel like I bring much to a conversation other than what my kid did this week. That part bothers me.
I mean really, who wants to talk to someone who talks about their kid all day? Granted, I'm not doing it because I think my kid is the best ever and everyone wants to hear about him (although I do think he's pretty awesome), it's because I just don't have anything else to talk about. And, it's not that I was some super well-read, opinionated, outspoken person before I had the baby and have "lost myself" as so many moms say. I was like this before, it just didn't matter as much. I had time to watch movies, hang out, and that worked.
I also have no problem being a stay-at-home mom and homemaker. There's nothing wrong with it. I enjoy it, for the most part. It's rewarding in a way that working isn't. Again, however, talking about the best way to remove x stain from y fabric, or what I'm making for dinner this week, is not very exciting or interesting.


So, I've been brainstorming about how to fix this, that don't necessarily involve me running all over town or going back to work. I'm not against working. I am against daycare raising my kid when it's not necessary. A job right now would only be to entertain me, not because we need the money.
The most I've come up with so far is to take up reading books, and to actually read the newspapers they drop off at my house that I didn't sign up for. A book club would be cool, but, I have a feeling I wouldn't be able to keep up with the rest of the group, and so it seems pretty pointless. However, if anyone wants to start a "we'll read it when we get to it" bookclub, lemme know. That could work! ;)


Part of my brain has seriously considered the working thing, even if it's a work from home thing. We're pretty fortunate that Sarge's job takes care of all our needs (wants, not so much, but all the needs, yes), so if I did this, I would love for it to be something that I LOVE to do. Figuring that part out... not so easy. I feel like I risk ruining something that I love to do because I have to do it. And it's also kind of hard to figure out what would be worth it as far as profit. Sure, I like to paint, but who knows if it would sell, ya know?


Blaaaah. So, new goal for myself: Be more interesting!
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